Another rainy day, and I'm taking a little bit of time to post while Rafael naps. I know my last posts have been gloomy, and I understand that some of you are worried. Something happened in my life that has made me question everything, and has blown my idea of what my every day existence means into pieces. It doesn't mean I'm broken. Just my illusion of what I believed my life to be.
So now it's time to rebuild.
What is important to me? What do I need to include in my life, and what do I need to let go of? These are the questions I am asking myself right now. You know, while folding laundry and wiping yogurt off the floor. I can't get too philosophical while my little guy is awake.
I hear him yawning, waking up, in the next room. So this post is coming to a close.
I mainly wanted to say.....don't worry.
I am very strong, and I am bent on being happy. So I will be, eventually.
In the meantime: thank you.
xoxoxo
From one woman going through a hard time to another...I wish I could make the world a smaller place so we could all support each other in person. In the absence of that, know that you are surrounded by a worldwide circle of women who care, and who understand (sometimes all too well) the struggles you face.
ReplyDeleteHello Dawn - as long as you remember that many people support you, even from afar. Just like Tracy is saying above ^^
ReplyDeleteI won't worry about you; instead I will pray that you will find joy day by day. Some days can be very difficult, but this I know for sure - there are better days ahead.
To me, it just sounds like you are growing up. You are doing adult "growing up"... the hardest part....
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you too Dawn, and know that each new day is reason to take baby steps and get moving!!! We love you!
ReplyDeleteI am sending hugs to you, Dawn! Know that you are loved!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to read this! Hope each day gets a little better.
ReplyDeleteLOVE YOU!!!!
ReplyDeleteWish I were close by to give you a hug. God is there.
ReplyDeleteI've had you in my thought ever since your last post, Dawn. I can feel the strength in your resolve to find your happiness. Sending you hugs, and prayers, and love as you find your way along the path.
ReplyDeletexxxjudy in california
I agree, wish we could all be there to give you a hug, and a supporting shoulder. I can totally feel your pain, even though you have not spoken of the cause. You are a mighty brave mother, god only knows how others would had crumbled in your shoes. Lots of prayers and hugs.
ReplyDeleteKnow you are in my thoughts and prayers. You are amazing:)
ReplyDeleteDawn,
ReplyDeleteI don't know you, but I have connected very deeply to your most recent posts.
"Rebuild" is a perfect word to describe the situation in which I find myself currently. It's as though my life went through a major storm while I was sleeping soundly. It was raining and raining and raining. I woke up, heard the thunderstorm, and opened my bedroom door to a flood. I think the rain has stopped now; the waters are receding, but there is flood damage everywhere. I liked my house the way it was, but it has changed. And it certainly can't remain the way it is now. I have to decide what to keep and what to discard. What is worth salvaging? It is so very hard.
Though I don't know the details, my heart still breaks for you. The good thing is that this post shows that you are looking forward to the way things can be and will be. You are not drowning in the flood. You are strong.
I guess it's easier to face the unknown and forge a new path when you have such a precious little motivator...Raffi. :) I have two little motivators of my own. They keep me moving forward instead of standing still, frozen with fear. I wish you all the best...wisdom, love, patience, strength, endurance, forgiveness. May God bless you and help you as you look for clarity, make tough decisions, and do the hard work of rebuilding. I hope that in the mess you find some treasures along the way and that there are days when beginning anew is a joy.
Raquel
That was a beautiful message, Raquel.
DeleteGod bless you and your children,
Elise
Thank you for your kind words, Elise.
DeleteRaquel
Wow, I agree, such a beautiful message Raquel.
DeleteYou seem like such an intuitive woman.
I hope you find the strength as you rebuild as well.
Dawn, I don't know you either but wish you the best. At the end of the day we all do know what 'the best' is - it's just a matter of remembering it. You will figure it all out...
ReplyDeleteWe are all rooting for you, Dawn! You are in our thoughts and prayers, surrounding you with God's light and love.
ReplyDeleteElise
Thank you all so much. xoxoxo
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