My dear Rafael,
Just writing those words brings tears to my eyes. You are the fulfillment of my greatest wish, and I thank God for you several times each day.
When you are asleep, I miss you. When you smile, I smile with you.
I want your life to be full of love and happiness. I hope we can give you a childhood that is carefree, fun, and full of magic and wonder as the best of childhoods are.
I want you to feel special. I want you to feel that our love for you is strong and very real every day of your life.
You are going through so many changes. You are growing, your first tooth is poking through, your eyes are all colors at once, gray green blue brown, and your hair is getting longer and making you look like a big boy. When I look at old photos, it amazes me how you are transforming before my eyes. I feel so fortunate to be able to accompany you throughout these days, months, and years.
You think I am funny, and that makes me so happy. You need me more than you need anyone else, and I am aware that this is a big responsibility, as well as a great honor.
I've been looking back on our first few months together lately, and also remembering your birth, and remembering feeling you move and grow inside of me. We are so close, you and I. We are so bound to one another. I love being 'you and me.' I love being with you!
My handsome, funny boy: I pray you will always know and feel how much your father and I love you.