...in my heart and on my mind
how are all of you today? how is the year treating you so far? do you think this one is already going by amazingly fast like i do?
i am introspective today. missing my baby. feeling a little lost. trying to be hopeful, and at the same time be accepting of whatever shall be and shall not be. though i can't help feeling afraid that 2010 will pass without bringing us a much-hoped-for healthy child to hold and love.
i buy flowers and trudge through snow-covered fields looking for beauty, looking for something to make me feel optimistic and energized. knowing that i am blessed, that we are blessed...and that sometimes blessings come in the form of not getting what you wish for with all your heart...
...still, i hope that life will be kind and gentle with me, with us, with you, this year. i know it's important to learn and grow. but i also know that i need the universe to show me good times and the sunny side of life for a while.
thinking of you, and hoping your hearts are feeling brighter today than mine...
xo your country girl