It's a cold and windy day. Clocks tick louder on days like these, in the quiet of the home, and this sweatshirt feels so soft and comforting. The dogs are sleeping on the couch while the wind rages outside, and I wonder if it will rain.
I just watched this video and it made me think about the new journey waiting for me: Motherhood. Because this woman's challenges are so much greater and more profound than mine, and on top of it all, she is also a mother. Sometimes I get caught up in worrying about whether or not I will be up for the challenge, and I sometimes lose myself in fretting about small details. When really, in my heart, I know that this will be the most meaningful and wonderful thing I will ever do.
Sometimes other people's bitterness gets under my skin, and I start thinking like they do, start thinking that life is ordinary with spats of hardship. But that's not really me, and not how I want to think or see things or live.
I want to live each day fully aware and grateful for all of my blessings. I want to live consciously, full of optimism and steady faith. I want to find humor in things, to laugh a lot, to not get consumed by my emotions, even when I am totally overwhelmed, because of my firm conviction that it will pass.
I want to be someone who gives (even if it's just a smile, a hug, or a kind word); who creates; who takes the time to listen and understand. I want to be a mother who cherishes each day with her child, who exists in full awareness of the passing of time and the immense worth of the moment. I don't want to complain. I don't want, for a second, to confuse the simplicity and daily rhythms of my life with banality or staleness. I want to be grateful for every day where I have the love and support of my husband, the miracle of my child, the company of my dogs, the warmth of my home, and the blessing of my purpose.
And I want to remember that my purpose as a wife and mother, though it may seem dull to someone else, is very special, and should be pursued with enthusiasm, joy, and gratitude.
Very well said, and I can't agree more! The love of being a Mother, wife and homemaker is becoming lost yet it's still the most important role in life. I"m so grateful that I was able to stay home with all three of my sons, they are good men because of that. You will be just fine!
ReplyDeleteAMEN. You will be a wonderful mother.
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You ARE that woman, dearest Dawn! I can't wait to see you in your new role...you'll shine! Enjoy the storm...dark here but no rain xoxo Rachel
ReplyDeletewonderful. i love reading your words and it feels to me like i've always know you...kindred spirits perhaps?! continue to enjoy the beauty & wonder in the simplicity of life....so many things to be grateful for. this is our life and these are the moments that count...all of them! sweet baby 'r' is a lucky boy to have a mom with such a honest & pure heart! sending love.
ReplyDeleteYou said that so sweetly. I am a mother to one child, a daughter. She's 24 now, and I still consider raising her to be the best part of my life. Congratulations on your journey into motherhood, you will be a wonderful mommy.
ReplyDeleteHi Dawn,
ReplyDeleteThis is the first time I've left you a comment but I have been reading your blog for a while now. All of your posts are so heartfelt, true, emotional, and inspiring. I love hearing about your journey through life and your outlook on things. It's not always easy, but you have the wonderful ability to see the beauty in all things. My son will be turning four in August. Following your blog along your journey and all the feelings you are having reminds me so much of what I went through as well. I was excited beyond words, but also terrified at the same time. Will I be a good mother? Will I know what to do? The good news is that Yes, we are figuring it all out as we go and every day is a blessing : ) I love seeing pictures from your daily walk through the woods. It must be wonderful to live in such a beautiful place. Good luck with the coming days and the birth of your son. Although we don't know each other, I know you will be a wonderful mommy.
Danielle
PS you dogs are adorable too!!!
You are all so good and kind to me. I am truly so grateful for the messages of support and recognition that you leave here for me, THANK YOU.
ReplyDeleteDearling, you are learning the lesson most people don't learn until they are too old to appreciate what they had (and there are some who never learn that). Enjoy every moment, even the ones where the children make your brain mushy! Have you ever read A New Earth by Eckart Tolle. He was an Oprah guest and I loved how he describes living in the present at all times. Fascinating.
ReplyDeletejust beautiful dawn.... you are a dear...
ReplyDeleteyou are going to be a wonderful mother...
and ramon a wonderful father...
congratulations on your journey....a journey filled with happiness and treasured memories to have forever...
sending love,
kary and teddy
xx
You are going to be a wonderful mother, glad you are relaxing and enjoying the ride and living each day in the moment Finding humor in the small things will serve you well as a mother. Looking forward to all the wonderful stories you will have to tell about motherhood. I'm so thankful for both my boys. xoxo
ReplyDeleteYay for the wisdom of your heart and mind...and for sharing your thoughts and insights here.
ReplyDeleteI love reading your musings and philosophy of a life well lived.